Friday, February 11, 2005

College Identity Crisis- Future Lawyer???

I am going to bet I am not the first college student that feels like maybe they are making the wrong choice. I could think of a zillion "what if...."s to tell you about. I am a criminal justice major and a public affairs major. I have no problems with working on 2 degrees. I just think sometimes....what if I never go to law school? what then?
And when it gets really bad I cry.
I had a really hard time with evidence class. Every day I came home thinking.....what if one day I have a client and they get convicted b/c I didn't do... (one thing or another with the evidence)? I would get this feeling, even if I do go to law school, I am going to be horrible lawyer.
I feel this way often. I honestly would say that it is fear. It scares me so much that I might not be a good lawyer or I may never be a lawyer. And this is only undergrad.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Alright. The fact that you worry about being a good lawyer is a good sign. If you were convinced you were the best then you wouldn't try very hard. The fact that you have to try harder will make you even better. If you give up then you'll never reach your goals, but it doesn't sound like you're giving up.. just getting frustrated. I understand that. This is Patrick (yahoo MooseDaddy67)
PS. If you want to continue our discussion from earlier feel free to contact me. I don't mind at all, and it will probably be easier outside of the chat room.

Brian said...

Ahh, to be an undergrad! I really don't mean to make light of your situation, and I hope you don't find this rude. But you're looking at it all wrong. You should be excited, not afraid.

It's not really your fault. The system in America is all messed up. We somehow expect people to decide how they'll spend the rest of their lives when they're 17 years old. Then if they change their minds later, we criticize them for it. This is, if you don't mind me saying so, total bullshit.

Nobody knows how they want to spend their life when they're 17. Or 18, or 19, or 20 for that matter. You just don't have the experience. How can you know if you want to be a lawyer, or a doctor, or a carpenter, or a soldier if you've never been any of those things? You have to try stuff on and see what fits. When I was 17, I tried the Army. Didn't fit. When I was 19, I tried engineering. Didn't fit. When I was 21, I tried forensic science. Didn't fit. Now I'm 27 and I'm a chemist and I'm happy. I've found a career I can life with. But it didn't happen overnight, and I didn't get it right on the first try. If you don't either, that doesn't make you a quitter or a failure or anything like that; it makes you normal.

So relax. The confusion you feel over your career path is completely natural. College is the perfect time to sort through this stuff, 'cause you have tremendous opportunity to try out different fields. Take advantage of these chances, and don't be afraid to change the path you're on if you find one you like better.

PS. Linked over here from your comment on my site (Broken Quanta). Thanks for the compliment you left; I appreciate that. Hope you don't mind if the old guy comes by your site every once in a while...