I hope my daughter is like me

Two interesting things crossed my mind today 1) I would enjoy either marrying a man that plays a piano or live by very quiet neighbors that keep their loud piano right next to the wall of my place 2) At what age do you become old enough that people quit asking your mother about you and respond to whatever she is saying (even it is harmless) with "Dont that upset you" or " I bet you worry sick about her".?
Thought number one just sounds lovely. Right now I could deal with lovely. (I sound 80)
And thought number two...geez...what can I say. These people do not only annoy me, but REALLY annoy my mother. J and I have been together 3 1/2 years...we will get married when and if we want to and really us staying together is no big deal. There are people married doing a lot worse than what were by staying unmarried. By the age of 19 I am completely in charge of managing my education (maybe not financing), but I am doing fine. Really.
What is so sad is that most of these people just want gossip and bad gossip at that. It is like they are trying to pry this one piece of bad news out of my mother. I have not done anything wrong. I actually hope my daughter grows up to be like me. Really.

College Identity Crisis- Future Lawyer???

I am going to bet I am not the first college student that feels like maybe they are making the wrong choice. I could think of a zillion "what if...."s to tell you about. I am a criminal justice major and a public affairs major. I have no problems with working on 2 degrees. I just think sometimes....what if I never go to law school? what then?
And when it gets really bad I cry.
I had a really hard time with evidence class. Every day I came home thinking.....what if one day I have a client and they get convicted b/c I didn't do... (one thing or another with the evidence)? I would get this feeling, even if I do go to law school, I am going to be horrible lawyer.
I feel this way often. I honestly would say that it is fear. It scares me so much that I might not be a good lawyer or I may never be a lawyer. And this is only undergrad.

A real Bad Day.

Today has been a Bad Day. A real Bad Day.
At work the kids spent their sessions writing their new penpals. That went well and was rather interesting. UNTIL...the last student I seen today did not bring in her permission slip. Her dad signed it and she lost it. I gave her another one, but I wasn't the happiest person. I dread giving my boss the news on Friday.
I had class then. It was ok.
But then there was J...why do guys seem to want to be the biggest babies when u have already had a bad day? Between school and work I got a lot on my plate right now. He seems to have pursuaded himself that I am his personal assistant. I feel like I should have a personal assistant, but I manage with my sticky notes. So should he.

The Dictator

Some people get bosses. I get a dictator. I think she only hears herself talking. I am serious. At the end of October I got permission slips to give the students I work with and to return back to her when they were filled out. October had 1 week fall break, November had 1 week Thanksgiving break and mid-December went into a month break. I really haven't worked that much and I have told her of all the problems I am having with kids returning them. Each kid has gotten 4 slips. Three of the ten kids have returned theirs. Monday I go in for our monthly meeting and she gives me a written warning telling me I should have gotten them back already and if I don't in 2 weeks I am fired (but in a more smarmy language).Nothing is worse than people who try to be nice when they are being rude. What am I supposed to do? I have talked to the kids and the teachers. I am not allowed to contact the parents.I have officially joined ranks with the employees that don't do their jobs correctly. I never thought it would happen to me.

Lazy Friday...

I don't feel like doing anything today. I keep thinking I should go study, but I can't seem to make myself. Last night I left my mom's and when I got home J was told me to go look in the bathroom. I walked in there and the whole bathroom was flooded (again) and water was coming from the base. A month ago our bathroom wall about caved in and the maintence men came and fixed it (took them a week). We had a hole in our wall for almost two weeks and this past week they finally got around to saying they would paint it and it leaks again! Really amazing. The lease will be up by the time it actually gets fixed.