Holiday sickness

Every holiday I seem to get sick. This past Thanksgiving and 4th of July I puked. This Christmas seems to be one where I am going to have the flu. Ugh.

The Flat Tire: Phone Calls on 11-28-05

12:35 PM
To: AAA

I inform AAA representitive that I am on the side of the rode and parked in the Taco Bell parking lot. I need my car towed to Wal-Mart because I don't have a spare tire. Wal-Mart is right across the street and across 2 large parking lots. (You know how big Wal-Mart parking lots are...think two of those.)

12:45 PM
To: Megan
No answer.

1:06 PM
From: AAA
There are running behind. It was only going to take an hour, but it will be taking longer now.

1:34 PM
From: AAA
They are on their way.(Look, they are are on there way within the hour)

2:03 PM
To: Mom
I tell my mom AAA has arrived.

4:08 PM
To: MOM
Wal-Mart is done putting new tires on my car.

Seeing Harry Potter takes 3 hours 30 minutes

I bought my tickets Wednesday night and was told that 200 tickets had already been sold. The movie theater only had 70 tickets left for the midnight viewing. They had also sold 15,000 dollars worth of tickets already. That meant it was going to be packed. We showed up at 11:15 only to see that the good seats on the second teir of the theater were already take. For the next 45 minutes we waited. I was jealous of the people that got to wear the Harry Potter scarfs, but anyway...
This movie is definatly meant for the die-hard Harry Potter fan. It would be hard for someone that has not seen the first three movies to really understand and appreciate this film. It is much darker than any of the previous movies. This isn't hard to believe, each Harry Potter film was darker than the last. I don't know at what age it is appropriate for, but I think the youth audience needs to growing with the films as they begin to be a little more creepier.
HOWEVER, I missed seeing Harry leave his aunt's house. I loved watching the train station scenes in the last movies. There is a lot of obvious character development. I was also shocked to see how much the actors had grown up. I had not seen them on any shows or magazine covers. I do think that this was much better than the last movie and could possibly be the best among the four. I left the movie theater at 2:45. That would be 3 hours and 30 minutes after my arrival. It was worth it.

Halloween Weekend

I spent my Saturday night at a haunted house and on the side of the road. The haunted house was decent until we got to the spinning room. It made us feel like we were walking sideways while being chased by a clown. Then we came to the gate maze that had flashing lights. I started getting this feeling I was going to get sick. I went for a few minutes and then got this terribly hot feeling in my mouth. If I didn't get out I was going to puke all over. I managed to get a clown to help me get out. My friend came with me. It was v. embarrassing. I didn't throw up, but I almost tripped. My cell phone flew out of my hand and into the gravel.
So we are on our way home. It's about eleven at night now. Brianna made a wrong turn and we went to turn around in a business' driveway. She stops and says, "The breaks are gone." I won't go through the details of how many people we were called between the four of us in the car. Or how Raeanne had someone offer to come get us, but told him not to. Or how Megan and I lit into her when we heard her tell him not to come. And how she said that she didn't want him to come because Megan cursed too much and the guy was Christian. Or how Megan told her off. Or how we all had on thin jackets and it was below freezing. I will just say we got home at 3:30 AM.

Psychology Exam

I think I did really well on my psychology exam. I completely bombed the last one, but this time I knew almost everyone of the answers. Go me! I am sitting here watching reruns of the Ashlee Simpson show. I miss watching the Simpson sisters on tv.
I was invited to a party tonight. It is not just any kind of party. It more like in-home shopping. Adult toys and accessories are the theme of the shop in home party. It is a friend of a friend thing and I am really not sure I want to go.
My mother is having a "pumpkin party". It involves lots of pumpkins and really hearty foods. Pumpkin bread, several variations of soups and chili, which all sounds really good. And everyone carves pumpkins.
I don't know which I will go to, but I can't go to both. Right now though, I am going to get ready to go to the gym.

Time to Find A JOB

I think 2 full months without a job has finally gotten to me. Being a student and not having to pay rent or any bills I can pretty much get the money I need off my mom. As a matter of fact, even when I had a job I still asked my mom for money. That seems kind of funny now.
I spend 3 hours a day watching my classes (or one day I do attend a 3 hour class). They each have a lot of heavy reading and every two weeks I have two papers due, along with quizzes, worksheets, exams, online forum posting and I regularly have to change the text I am using in two of my classes. There are also 3 large projects and I have to participate in the psych divisions surveys/projects for my psychology class (which is my least favorite subject). I have plenty of things to do and I haven't really noticed that I haven't had a job because I have not went shopping in quiet awhile.
Sometimes I really feel bad for not working. It feels like I am doing something wrong. There must be lots of students somewhere that aren't working.

Ring Ring Ring

I thought I had my phone off when I went into class. I thought I stuck it in my purse. It wasn't off. It wasn't in my purse. I got 2 phone calls. During class. During an exam. And I couldn't find my phone to make it stop.

Kim Possible

It is 11:45 P.M. . I am bored, wide awake and watching the Disney channel. As the title implies, the show of the night is Kim Possible. It's so hot and humid. I think I am too uncomfortable to sleep.

Brittney is...

Thanks to Amber at http://luckypink.blogspot.com (<---check it out) I finally have a blog entry. I Googled the "Brittney is" and this is what Brittney is...

Brittney is a relatively experienced escort who is sure to become a very popular
Brittney has a lovely figure, is attractive facially
Brittney is Preggers
Brittney is never without an opinion, never without a thought
Brittney is definitely the center of attention in our home
Brittney is 19
Brittney is the #547 most common female name
Brittney is already boy crazy
Brittney is a new girl at Fantasy.
Brittney is not your typical girl
brittney is NOT a good role model.

I like some of these.

Webcams, Stripping, and Dancing On a Table

Sometimes I wonder who these girls that get naked on webcams. Don't they know this is equivalent to stripping for a crowd or dancing drunk on a table? Does the fact that you are in your home make you feel you aren't as slutty as the girls who are out about doing it? At least the girls stripping and dancing on tables are honest about it. They have some virtue in them.

USA Today Article about Child Pornography

There is an online USA today article about the rise of child pornography on the internet. I am both a criminal justice major in college and someone that has worked with children for the past two years. The internet has become a great concern of mine for the safety of the world's children and teenagers. The internet is a door into our homes and a haven a for sexual predators. It appears at this time there are few ways of really monitoring every persons activity on here, but I hope this trend begins to decrease instead increase.

Coming to Terms With Summer

Every day is Summer in my memories of being a child. August makes me feel desperate. I have to cling onto Summer, spend everyday trying to doing something that makes me feel like I didn't just let her slip away. August makes me sad and sentimental. I remember Summer being days in Florida and many many days swimming at the lake. Bike riding and skinned knees. I owe several of my best scars to Summer. I am afraid she is about to go away.

The Dictator Revisited

In the beginging of the year I often mentioned The Dictator. She was the boss that always left you with that feeling of just being bullied. In June I worked daily right along side her at a youth day camp for 2 weeks and began to get to know her a little better. She really had lightened up a lot. In the past I would paste some of her emails in here to show exactly why I didn't love her. Here is something slightly different:

Good luck with your education; you are a very bright and articulate woman - I know you will go far.

Thats was my email. I took out the greeting and the salutations. I thought it was incredibly kind.

Last day of work

Today when I was taking my boss' gift and my work stuff back when I got a little sentimental. Working with kids has been all rewarding, challenging and fun at the same time. Half of my job required the kids meeting me in the middle to reach what goals we set. For the last two years I have worked with approximately 50 students (give or take a few due to moving, schedule changes, etc.) between the ages of 6 and 12. Our time was one on one so we began to develop a friendship. The time out of the classroom was a time for them to develop their own interest and have some freedom. I basically got paid for assisting a child in their own success. It was exciting to watch them mature. Kids do a lot in only one year. Sometimes it was heartbreaking to hear about their home lives. I loved hearing their opinions about things. What was funny was usually how they came to those conclusions. I really loved my job. I don't know if next year I will be working for the same program. It feels like it might be time to move on, but I can honestly say that it was never like work and I wouldnt hate going back.

50 Things Your Probably Don't Know About Me

1. I am spoiled, but I got my first job when I was 14.
2. I entered photography contest during my childhood and early teens.
3. When someone does something embarrassing I often get embarrassed for them and have to turn away. Even if it is on tv or in a movie.
4. I dislike scary movies.
5. I picked out my engagement ring when I was 14.
6. The man I am meant to marry will get me that ring (in my fairy tale at least)
7. People generally think I am very religious.
8. I’m not.
9. My friends are though.
10. I got my first diary when I was 5.
11. It was a Bart Simpson one.
12. I couldn’t make complete sentences at the time.
13. It is a significant memory in my life.
14. Writing is therapeutic for me.
15. My mom is a perfectionist.
16. As a child my grandma would punish me by threatening to trade me to the Indians for a sack of corn.
17. I work best alone.
18. I do not like chocolate without something else in it.
19. I am firmly against sanctuary policies (don’t get me started)
20. I was fooled by bottled water.
21. I still buy it though.
22. I would love to have a filter for my shower.
23. FFA ice cream in the summer is the best.
24. People going away is a fear of mine.
25. I have a very small family.
26. #24 and #25 probably go hand in hand.
27. I take pride in my loyalty and honesty.
28. Exasperating is often used to describe me.
29. Making this list is a way for me to better get acquainted with myself.
30. Self awareness is very important to me.
31. I owe anything successful that I have done (in anyway) to my own self-awareness.
32. And to my mom.
33. My mom has always been an equal mix of mother and friend.
34. I have one sister.
35. She has a great laugh.
36. She knows tons about animals.
37. I know nothing about animals.
38. I don’t care to learn anything about them either.
39. I am vegetarian.
40. I have been one since I was 12.
41. I was a candy-striper all 4 years of high school.
42. I have volunteered at a lot of places.
43. Volunteer work has been one of the most rewarding and influential thing I have ever done.
44. Getting through my life has often revolved around the 6 Billion Rule.
45. The 6 Billion Rule: Remember there are 6 billion people in the world.
46. This rule implies that you will get thought any situation because that one person or job or situation cannot make or break you. There are at least 6 billion others.
47. The morning of the first snow fall that covers the ground is still magical for me.
48. I love Jones Cream Soda.
49. I think it taste like cotton candy.
50. I have 4 goldfish that I call "The Guys"

The Birthday Blog

So today is my 20th birthday. Yah. I am so grumpy today. I can't help it. I am tired all over. Everything seems so complicated today. It is going to rain...that cant be a good sign.

Mean Joey

Joe yells all the time. He even yells over things that have no reason to be yelled about. He gives dirty looks when mistakes or accidents happen. Really dirty looks. This morning I dropped an egg. He gave me a really mean look and started shaking his head. This made me cry. I left the food on the stove cooking and left the room crying. He could have finished cooking the food. He was standing right next to the stove, but he yelled at me more and followed me out of the room. He says I am spoiled. I say he is mean. He is much too angry. He needs to quit being mean to me when I make a mistake, because thats all it is...a mistake.

Last night

Last night Meg and I decided to go cruising and grab a bite to eat with Julie and Alicia(one of Julie's work friends). We met them at Fricker's and afterwards seperated. Meg and I drove around gossiping and generally acting like complete idiots when a nice new red convertable drove by. There were two guys in the car. The driver was not unfortunate.
He begins waving. We past them again. He is telling me to pull over. And we pass them one more time. He slows down (they are driving the opposite direction and I have my window down) and whips out his cell phone. He starts taking pictures of me. Isn't that weird? This can't possibly be the reason picture phones were invented, can it?

Somewhere else...

Somewhere else there is something exciting happening tonight. Not here.
Friday- Camping. Most people complain about laying on rocks and sleeping bad. I left my entire set of keys in my pants pockets and slept on my stomach. The rocks felt good compared to sleeping on my keys.
Saturday-Meg and I went to the movies. Got something to eat. Set in post-fireworks traffic. And acted like complete fools. Got home at 11:30 PM and went to BF's. We went cruising and Village Pantry.

Sunday- Came home. Watched tv. Bored.

Taste of Cincinnati

I seemed to have spent the entire Memorial Day weekend stuffing my face with one food or another. Friday night I met Meg and Julie at Frickers. Then J and I headed to Dayton in pursuit of a good local restaurant that was never found(but I won't rant about this). Saturday evening J and I went to the Taste of Cincinnati festival. There was lots of yumminess. There was some delicious mango springrolls...mmmm. It was the perfect weather for the event. Afterwards (around 11:30) we went to Wal-Mart to glance at some camping gear and to take a potty break. We wasn't ready to head home and just happened to be near Applebee's. Needless to say, the next day I could barely walk, but found room for Subway and even broke-in my S'more maker that I got for Christmas from my mom. Yesterday J made his famous chili. Guess what? My tummy hurts...I think I ate too much.

THE SHOES

On May 8th I discovered my shoes: The Shoes. I adore them. It was love at first sight. It was strange because normally I would never have found myself attracted to them. It was different this time. I tried to walk away. I made it out of the store. Even made it through dinner, but I had to have them.
I bought them in a size 8. I wear a size 6. It was ok if they were not in my size. It made them better. More room to move around. They are comfy and sexy. Great with a skirt or jeans. I love them. I hope you do too.



I know that it may seem like bright pink, strappy heels sounds slutty....they are and I still love them.

The Date Plus/Must List

1) Non-Smoker or must be willing and have the intentions of one day no longer smoking (Must) NO CHAIN SMOKERS
2) Believe in God (Must)---not a religous fanatic, just a belief in God.
3) Likes rollercoasters, carnival rides, etc (Must)
4) Be willing to attend plays and performances with me even if he does not enjoy it (Plus)
5) Drive and have a car (MUST)
6) Not a picky eater (MUST)
7) Must be fairly social (Must) I have no desire to date an ant-social person. Being alone can be wonderful, but not all the time.

To be continued...

Boring Saturday Night

I am very bored. Ho hum...

To the person who left a comment with my last entry. I responded to you in the comment part of the last entry also.

Mean Jblog

Last night during the OC season finale J decided to summon his enter jerk. Between the hours of 7:30 PM and 9:35 PM J managed to completely make me mad and sad at the same time. To add to the emotional rollercoaster I am PMSing and have had a sinus infection for the last 3 weeks. You think after 3 and a half years he would know better than to take a sick-PMSing Brittney and use his inner-jerk to be mean. He is sitting on the couch behind me while i write this. I don't care. I am still mad.

Alice in GrassyLotsLand (at IUPUI)

Yesterday I headed to Indianapolis to meet an academic advisor and check out the campus apartments. As the meeting with the advisor came to an end he recommended that I go to the Cavanaugh (spelling?) building to check out my term activation. He told me the building was right across the grassy lot. I left his office, went down the elevator and found myself facing 2 large grassy lots. One was to my left and one was to my right with large buildings at the end of both. Now, I love Alice in Wonderland, but this was my first very noticable Alice in Wonderland moment.
I crossed the grassy lot to the building to the right. I got to the building to the right and it was the wrong one. I turn around and faced the building I just left (I had walked east and was now facing west) to find another group of grassy lots with large buildings in several areas. After walking for about 30 minutes I realized that I was going farther from my parking lot and I really needed to go back the other way. I found the building...right next to my parking spot. My car had even been facing it.

Grocery Shopping

I believe you can tell a lot about a person by little things they do or buy. So here is what I bought at the grocery store today:
2 12-packs of bottled water
1 6-pack of Diet Dr. Pepper
1 gallon of chocolate milk
1 frozen fruit punch concentrate thingies
1 magazing (I wanted Vogue, then Cosmo, but since they had neither settled for Shop etc. which is quite boring)
I also bought 3 other things but I bought those for J.
Hmmmm, what does this say about me?

The Weekend Review

I could tell you about my day with my family yesterday. It was sundaes, shoe shopping and dinner. It was a lot of fun. I could go on about Friday night's dinner with Megan, Julie and Brett, but I won't. I am going to rant about Saturday. It deserves it.
It was Megan's 20th Birthday (this is not the Meg from the creepy guy entry). We decided to go out to eat and go to a local club. It was Julie, Megan and me. I have known Julie and Megan since we were very young children, but I am really only friends with Megan. The both had a VERY VERY religious upbringing. I am moral, much more than most people, but not for religious reasons. Anyway...
At the dinner Julie gets attitude. Julie is very pretty. Tall and thin. She starts saying when we get to the club she don't want to be around us. It didn't stop there. Julie did it all night! It ruined the night. When we left the club she then decides to inform me that her mother would be upset that she went there b/c they do not approve of atmospheres that promote drinking and that "type of dressing." I am thinking, Why did you act like you wanted to come then?

She then claims this guy that was talking to us was really drunk. He had a beer in his hand and was holding a completely decent conversation. Obviously Julie and I don't define drunk or anything else the same way. (She voted for Bush...) She doesn't need to be going to a bar of any sort or a club or a party. Frankly, I am glad the girl looks like a model, b/c she has absolutely nothing else going for her.

Survived Finals

Well, finals are all over. I know I got an A in Professional English. I am predicting "A"s in wrongful convictions, crime and public policy, managing behavior in the public sector and I think I got a B in criminal procedural law.
I have a one week break until I have 2 more classes start. I am taking speech and Journalism: Public Relations.
I have a terrible soar throat. My head and ears also hurt. I wish I could call in today, but it is the last day I work with my students and I need to give them some of their stuff. After that I need to go shopping for Megan's birthday present and a mother's day present.

Star Wars Revisited

It is 2:30 AM, Sunday morning, and I feel as if instead of getting up I should just now be getting home, but I went to bed very early last night. It snowed. I generally hibernate in the winter. I didn't expect winter to come just a few days after wearing my capris and flip flops. So seeing the winter come I fully understood I needed to stay home and go to bed early. (J didn't understand, but that's something else)
At 4:30 last evening I attended...wait a sec(Cheers is on and I had to sing the theme song. Love that show)...ok, last evening I went to the theater for my first viewing of The Empire Strikes Back. I was asleep in 5 minutes. I did wake up in random intervals to text message and catch a glimpse of the screen. I woke up at one point and came under the impression that I had misunderstood Star Wars. It MUST really be a comedy. That's why I never got it.
I asked J if my thought was right. "Is this a comedy?"
"No."
It was a definite "no." I was thinking maybe that it was really supposed to be like that movie the Home Improvement-guy was in, oh you know, the comedy...I will figure it out later.
Anyway, I left knowing as little and liking as little as I did going in.

STAR Wars

Everyone who has read my profile is aware of my dislike for movies that begin with the word "Star." A local theater is showing 3 Star Wars movies-one Friday and two Saturday. J, the self proclaimed Trekkie has decided he wants to see these movies. Isn't he being a traitor by being a Trekkie and wanting to see Star Wars? It just seems wrong. Guess who he wants to go with him?

The Creepy Guy

Last night around 8:00 I was really hungry, so I called Meg to see if she wanted to get something to eat. She said yes and at 9 she came to my mom's house. From there I drove to Richmond. We went to Applebee's, ate and was out by 10:30. We were still talking a lot so we decided to go for a drive. We were in town and going down main street when I came to a red light.
A man with his friends was parked along the left side of the street. So this made it where if we both looked out the driver's windows we would be looking at each other. I kinda glanced over and noticed him staring. I ignored it. Meg was telling me about her vacation. I glanced out of the corner of my eye and he was still staring straight at me.
The whole situation was becoming awkward b/c I couldn't even look straight or i would be able to see him staring at me. Finally I looked over put all my fingers straight up in a hello-i-observe-you/alien greeting sort of way.
That was all it took. He was grinning this i-am-insane-grin. It wasn't a grin actually. It was a huge-show-all-teeth-smile. AND he didn't blink. (I would like to mention, I wasn't grinning at this point.) Through out the 20 minute drive we passed him multiple times. When we did he would have that grin slapped on and strare. Eventually it became funny and we would crack up everytime we seen him. I think I made his year.

Survived

Well, I survived this week which included:

• 6 page paper on immigration policy
• 6 page paper on Dennis Williams
• 6 page paper on Richard Branson
• 6 page proposal on current use of class sites
• 3 presentations

As the week went along my papers and presentations got better! I ended the week with my immigration paper and presentation. Immigration is very interesting topic I have realized and I think this weekend I am going to reward myself for said accomplishments!

Gym and Library

I finally opened my mail. Finally is put there to imply that I did not open it ASAP. There was a letter from the library. I was perfectly aware of the fact that I had overdue books. What I wasn't aware of what how overdue. Well, it seems they are over a month overdue and the library adds a processing fee to books over 30 days late. I work for a literacy program so this was bound to happen, but not 30 days and a processing fee. Anyway I am guessing I owe the libary around 60 dollars.

I went to the gym at around 7:15 in the morning. There was not very many people there which I both like and dislike. I go to the treadmill---as I usually do and almost the only thing I do. All of the treadmills are free. I am on it about 15 minutes and this man comes and gets on the one right next to me...grrr. It was like being in an empty movie theater and having someone come sit in the seat next to you. Why?

Think twice about the cosmetic counter girl

I went to a job interview Monday (not the one I mentioned in the last post). This was just a position at a cosmetic counter girl at a local department store. It didn't go so well.

Manager: Is there question that has 2 right answers?

Me: Hmmmm, I really don't know. I guess it depends on the question.

Earlier in the interview.

Manager: Let's say it is a slow day in the store. You need to meet your daily quota and the only way to get more sales is by getting customers. You aren't allowed to leave your counter. How do you do it?

Earlier, Earlier in the interview

Manager: What makes you take an interest in law?
Me: I like to have intelligent debates. I don't like to argue, but in a controlled environment it can be interesting. (What was I thinking?!?!?)
Manager: So you are a controlling person that likes conflict.
Me: No, I don't think I am like that all. I don't like conflict, but I do believe if a person controls themself they can avoid conflict.

I can go with controlling. Maybe there are things I feel the need to be in control of, but "enjoys conflict" is a bit much. I dislike conflict. I avoid conflict. It is one of my best traits. I only have dates with Conflict when there is no one else and things have turned desperate.

Hmmmm. Wonder if I got the job...

new new new

I think I am going to have a new job. Yes, you heard me. I turned my application in at 2:00 and at 2:40 they called me for an interview they want to have tomorrow. I haven't got the job but I do think that looks good.
Tonight Boyfriend and I go to sign the lease for our new apartment. I think its fate because new apartment is only 2 blocks away from new job. New job also pays more than old job and I will be getting more hours.
But the best part of all....The Dictator will be gone. I just keep hoping there will not be a new dictator. I am just hoping for a normal boss and a job that does not require bringing so much work home.

The Dictator (Part 2)

Well, she has done it again. The Dictator(A.K.A. the boss) has sent a rude email. I really don't think anyone has ever said the "assume thing" to her. Don't assume it makes a....you should know where that is headed, but if you dont, email me. Trust me, you need to know.
In my heart I want to believe she don't know that everything she says and does is incredibly rude, but my head knows that more than likely she does it deliberatly. It inspired me to finally send out my resume.

The Email

I hope everyone is enjoying their Spring Break!!! I'm FINALLY sendingout the March tutor newsletter, so here ya go! In case you cannot openthe attachment, I have stuck a print-out in your folder on the wall. Iexpect everyone to check their folders regularly and to READ THESENEWLETTERS!!!!

Look at all the exclamation marks. Now, I know it may seem like I am being a bit sensitive but imagine getting emails like this all the time. The Dictator is 10 times worse in person.

So you want the truth?

I have recently realized just how tricky the truth can be. The truth is exactly what you want, but you don't want to hear. And then there is do I actually believe that is the truth?
It is like when women ask men if they think a particular piece of clothing makes them look fat. Of course any intelligent guy will say no. That is not the end of it though. Is he just saying that? Of course he is, he would never tell me i look fat. But maybe i really dont look fat in this. How will i really know?
You won't ever really know unless you take a look for yourself. I wouldn't be the first person who has said that ultimately you decide what the truth is, but this is the first time I have understood it. Instead of looking around and trying to figure out what every one else can see I am just going to take a look myself. I bet I will find the truth.

I spy something in the library...

The man next to me is trying to pick his nose. I say trying because he attempting to do it without actually "pointing to his brain"---thats what I called it as a child. Ya know, not really putting his fingers up there, but he is putting his thumb in front of one nostril and index finger in front of the other. I don't actually care. I would rather him do this instead of actually pointing to the brain. He is short with this dark hair. He is wearing blue jeans and a deep red button-up shirt. He is in his mid-thirties I would guess. I noticed when he walked over.
Oh, good grief! He must have noticed me noticing because now he is mumbling to himself. Not mean mumbling, but the kind people do when they are trying to act like they are really concentrating or want to seem important. He can't read what I am writing. There is a square shape being made out of 4 desk and we all face the center. He is to the right of me and there is a young black girl to the left.
I am at the university library doing some research on Richard Branson. Well, I was doing research as you can tell it wasn't going good, because now I am blogging.
Okay, his mumbling is actually not mumbling. I can hear what he is saying. He has big eyes....the big-because-I-have-them-wide-open kind. I imagine he stresses himself out. He is looking all around now.
This guy has to be single.

Technology illiterate

I come with news about myself that I find rather tragic. The once Computer-Illiterate-Brittney is now the Technology-Illiterate-Brittney. Yes, you have heard me correctly. I imagine this did not happen overnight but gradually took over me like a disease and now I have just noticed the symptoms, but unfortunately it is too late.

I feel left out suddenly. Everyone has cell-phones that are colorful and have many more keys than a phone should ever have. There are also those pesky, electronic organizers…..I believe a PalmPilot. But the most horrible of all….the iPod! I want one. Yes I do. I never really noticed what new gadgets people were whipping out until the iPod. AND I only hear good things about them. Suddenly I noticed everything.

I doubt I ever leave my way-too-large-for-my-purse address book and planner behind. I don’t think I could live with out my sticky notes. I KNOW I couldn’t live without my sticky notes, but maybe I should at least consider being observant to what is going on. A new cell phone is probably needed and of course, the iPod completely fascinates me. The trouble is that then I would have to learn how to use it. That would lead to a blog about customer service and I am not sure anyone wants that.

I hope my daughter is like me

Two interesting things crossed my mind today 1) I would enjoy either marrying a man that plays a piano or live by very quiet neighbors that keep their loud piano right next to the wall of my place 2) At what age do you become old enough that people quit asking your mother about you and respond to whatever she is saying (even it is harmless) with "Dont that upset you" or " I bet you worry sick about her".?
Thought number one just sounds lovely. Right now I could deal with lovely. (I sound 80)
And thought number two...geez...what can I say. These people do not only annoy me, but REALLY annoy my mother. J and I have been together 3 1/2 years...we will get married when and if we want to and really us staying together is no big deal. There are people married doing a lot worse than what were by staying unmarried. By the age of 19 I am completely in charge of managing my education (maybe not financing), but I am doing fine. Really.
What is so sad is that most of these people just want gossip and bad gossip at that. It is like they are trying to pry this one piece of bad news out of my mother. I have not done anything wrong. I actually hope my daughter grows up to be like me. Really.

College Identity Crisis- Future Lawyer???

I am going to bet I am not the first college student that feels like maybe they are making the wrong choice. I could think of a zillion "what if...."s to tell you about. I am a criminal justice major and a public affairs major. I have no problems with working on 2 degrees. I just think sometimes....what if I never go to law school? what then?
And when it gets really bad I cry.
I had a really hard time with evidence class. Every day I came home thinking.....what if one day I have a client and they get convicted b/c I didn't do... (one thing or another with the evidence)? I would get this feeling, even if I do go to law school, I am going to be horrible lawyer.
I feel this way often. I honestly would say that it is fear. It scares me so much that I might not be a good lawyer or I may never be a lawyer. And this is only undergrad.

A real Bad Day.

Today has been a Bad Day. A real Bad Day.
At work the kids spent their sessions writing their new penpals. That went well and was rather interesting. UNTIL...the last student I seen today did not bring in her permission slip. Her dad signed it and she lost it. I gave her another one, but I wasn't the happiest person. I dread giving my boss the news on Friday.
I had class then. It was ok.
But then there was J...why do guys seem to want to be the biggest babies when u have already had a bad day? Between school and work I got a lot on my plate right now. He seems to have pursuaded himself that I am his personal assistant. I feel like I should have a personal assistant, but I manage with my sticky notes. So should he.

The Dictator

Some people get bosses. I get a dictator. I think she only hears herself talking. I am serious. At the end of October I got permission slips to give the students I work with and to return back to her when they were filled out. October had 1 week fall break, November had 1 week Thanksgiving break and mid-December went into a month break. I really haven't worked that much and I have told her of all the problems I am having with kids returning them. Each kid has gotten 4 slips. Three of the ten kids have returned theirs. Monday I go in for our monthly meeting and she gives me a written warning telling me I should have gotten them back already and if I don't in 2 weeks I am fired (but in a more smarmy language).Nothing is worse than people who try to be nice when they are being rude. What am I supposed to do? I have talked to the kids and the teachers. I am not allowed to contact the parents.I have officially joined ranks with the employees that don't do their jobs correctly. I never thought it would happen to me.

Lazy Friday...

I don't feel like doing anything today. I keep thinking I should go study, but I can't seem to make myself. Last night I left my mom's and when I got home J was told me to go look in the bathroom. I walked in there and the whole bathroom was flooded (again) and water was coming from the base. A month ago our bathroom wall about caved in and the maintence men came and fixed it (took them a week). We had a hole in our wall for almost two weeks and this past week they finally got around to saying they would paint it and it leaks again! Really amazing. The lease will be up by the time it actually gets fixed.